A Defining Moment

I have said all along that I will not allow diabetes to define Hannah. I do not want it to be the first thing people think of when they think of her. I want them to see beyond that. To see her outrageous smile and her quirky sense of humor. I want them to know how wise and wild she is.

I have worked hard to keep her disease from being at the forefront of her life, so that she doesn't have to focus on it either. But it's hard work keeping all of that in the background. It's like I'm the prop guy in a low buget movie running around trying to keep up appearances on the set. Make it look natural. Make it look easy. So that people look past the diabetes drama and love the Hannah I love.

But you know what? The Hannah I love DOES have diabetes. It IS a part of her definition and I think my biggest struggle is in coming to grips with that. Accepting it - even after 3 years - is not an easy thing. Why am I putting this pressure on myself to create the illusion of a life without diabetes when it is such a huge part of who we are?