Heart Ache

I dont know where else to go with this news, so I thought I would post it for all the world - or absolutely no one - to read. My husband - 43 and living with Type 1 diabetes since age 11 - had a heart attack last week. We sat stunned and frightened by the treatment senarios, all the while not quite believeing this was for real. But it is, and I am not sure how to process the feelings I have. We thought it was the flu for god sake - now were talking heart attack? I am scared and angry and full of resentment for diabetes in general. I sat the whole time thinking about his future, our future, our childrens' futures. They both have T1 diabetes too. Will I someday be sitting by their bedside hoping they dont die? Could diabetes really do this to us? Yes...it really could. I forget sometimes that this disease can take a life. The day to day work is so consuming that you can forget the long term possibilities...until of course you are so shockingly reminded of them. I know that I experienced that day - and every emotion associated with it - three times over. Saw the girls' faces every time I looked at his - so scared and shocked. His prognosis is good and the doctor said it was "a warning shot over our bow" - a reminder to continue living well and managing diabetes aggressively. A game changer. A do-over. A second chance that many never get. Will he use this chance to examine his life and live more fully? I hope so. Times three.